Pouring from deep emotion longing for expression, this poem grew from Christian Writer’s November Blog Chain theme, “Nine”, and these nine (nine letter) words/phrases that kept thundering through my thoughts: engulfing, exquisite, sanctuary, shattered, softening, suffocate, surrender, touch deep, to be known. Overwhelmed by the terrible, exquisite love of God is this, my heart, on my 46th birthday:
Pierce me with your words
Shatter me with your love
Drench my soul in compassion
Engulfing life and breath and passion
I’m not OK!
Suffocating tumult of
Rock hard words
Too big to swallow
Embers neatly nailed into
Square glass frames
Oh, agony of being
Shards of self
Oh, how I long to be known!
Beyond the painted frame,
More than what I do or wear,
Who I am or
How I speak…
Deep calling to deep
My soul thirsts for You!
My body longs for You,
Soul clings to you,
Because love is better than life!
I groan and my spirit is weak,
Too troubled to speak
Oh, agony of surrender!
In the shelter of His wings
To the God of my life.
*These words were drawn from the following verses, sometimes in whole, sometimes in part or in theme, because who knows the emotions of our souls better than the One who created them?
Show me, O Lord, my life’s end
And the number of my days;
Let me know how fleeting is my life.
You have made my days a mere handbreadth;
The span of my years is as nothing before you.
Each man’s life is but a breath. (Psalm 39:4-5)
My soul thirsts for God, the living God, (Psalm 42:2)
Deep calls to deep
In the roar of Your waterfalls. (Psalm 42:7)
By day the Lord directs His love,
At night His song is with me –
A prayer to the God of my life. (Psalm 42:8)
My body longs for You, (Psalm 63:1a)
Because love is better than life (Psalm 63:3)
Soul clings to you… (Psalm 63:7-8)
So I will sing in the shadow of Your wings.
And rest in You alone. (Psalm 62:1)
You are awesome, O God, in your sanctuary… (Psalm 68:35a)
I remembered you, O God, and I groaned;
I mused, and my spirit grew faint.
You kept my eyes from closing;
I was too troubled to speak. (Psalm 77:3-4)